It still blows my mind when I am shown how living thru my soul, being connected to source, being one with the Universe connects us to one another. I just came back from my second home, Mexico. It's the first time I've been back there since my separation, my divorce. Just when you think the healing is done...wham! I was walking down the beach and I came upon the house my ex and I had rented years ago. Being directionally challenged, it caught me off guard, but I was fine. I continued to walk, with my now wonderful new man, enjoying being back along side the ocean, where I belong. The next day we decided to take another walk and as we got closer and closer to the house, this time my emotions took over. Tears started to flow and I tried my best to fight them off, but it wasn't working. There was no way around it, I had to let it out. We stopped to cool off in the ocean, I drifted off in another direction, not wanting my love to witness this woman having a complete meltdown. To top it all off it was his birthday, he certainly didn't deserve me crying over my past with my ex! But I was overwhelmed, crying out loud, gasping for air, but I had to continue to let it flow. The ocean has been so healing for me over the years in many ways, this seemed only fitting I would have some sort of spiritual cleanse in my home, the beautiful Mayan Riviera turquoise sea. I had a similar uncontrollable outpour of emotions once during a drumming ritual at one of the powerful vortexes in Sedona, only then I had no idea what the reason was, I just knew it was the start of a long road of healing that needed to be done. I remember the native intuitive telling me 'there are all these doors opening all around you, but you're lost, you don't know which door to walk through'.
Once the crying in the ocean subsided I thanked God, my family up above and my angels and guides for the opportunity I was given and sat on the beach explaining to my new love what had just occurred. A wonderful man he is, understanding and loving. The sadness left and later I felt a sense of relief that I could be back to a place I love and return again instead of fearing the past and the memories. So many of us have to run the other way instead of facing our fears head on and allowing the healing to take place. I walked by the house once more a few days before the trip was over, this time on my own after doing a little shopping in town and I was able to fully enjoy it and I know I can now come back without any concerns.
While there I checked my astrologer Phil Booth's horoscope..'Something is lingering on from the past that is best forgotten. Shaking it off requires a huge effort of willpower. Exceptionally powerful cosmic developments promise a fruitful few days that will lead to something meaningful, profound and inspired.' Then I read a woman's blog I connected with on her site Shameless Community..'Lunar eclipses are Full Moons on Steroids. They usually END something... even if it's simply an inner pattern (or 10) that no longer serve. They can remove A LOT. Life can feel weird, as if it's been strip-mined. Don't worry, the more you allow to release now, the better. The vacuum will begin to be filled perfectly with the New, May 9 onward, especially if you invite in a Divine plan.'
Then even more validation, more signs from God....just before I left I wrote my best girlfriend an email explaining what had happened only leaving out the exact date. She replied by saying 'one day you were really on my mind and I said an extra prayer for you'....my eyes well up now thinking about how we confirmed upon my return that it was the very same day I was crying in the ocean. I am so very grateful for the beautiful people I am so connected to, even when we are separated by miles and miles. I am grateful to be living though my soul, to be one with God and the Universe, to continue to grow and to heal while here on earth, in school. As I continue to learn, I understand the importance of taking the time we need before moving on to the next grade, just like in school.